Lord, i'm so tired ...
Lord i'm tired..
so tired from walking..
and Lord i'm so alone..
Lord the dark..
is creeping in..
is creeping out..
to swallow me..
I think i'll stop..
rest here a while...
this is all i can say
right now..
and this is all that
i can give...
this is all i can say
right now.. (i know its not much)
and this is all that
i can give...
that's my everything..
Lord did you see
me crying..
all and that you hear me..
call Your name..
was i at You..
that i give my heart to..
......
......
......
this is all i can say
right now.. (i know its not much)
and this is all that
i can give...
that's my everything....
I didn't know You were
standing here..
i didn't know that You were
holding me..
i didn't know that You were
crying to me..
i didn't know that was You
washing my feet..
this is all i can say
right now.. (i know its not much)
and this is all that
i can give...
that's my everything....
:*(
I guess not every moment, everyday is a happy day. no.. i'm human, sinful as per nature. As i walk, breathe, wondered.. I wondered what life meant, i wondered if it meant anything, to anyone. I asked if it mattered if i live or die. I wondered. i asked.
Been a while since i blogged. not sure if anyone's reading or have been. But other then school work, and exams weeks ago, i'm practically so tied up.. with what? Busy-ness? I was running away.. was trying to numb that feeling. hoping it'll all go away, hoping it'll all be drowned.. somehow.. but.. it didn't.. Day and night i turned and and stared wide open at my ceiling as i lie awake in bed, lights off, in darkness. I questioned. I searched.
I'm not sure where life leads and what lies ahead. I'm scared, rather i'm terrified. I stopped. Life seemed to have halted and came to standstill. I'm lost.
Duno how to describe. But it was painful. I always thought, if only i understand why i'm feeling certain ways, why i do certain things and why i think in certain manner.. i was wrong. I realise i do not know what to do now that i realise what's wrong.. I need someone to walk alongside.. but i doubt they are free..
inner conflicts, inner distraught, disarrays of self. pain.
Lord help..
12 May, 2005
xh @ 12:38 AM
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